Jay Z totally got real and uncut about the low points in his marriage to his superstar wife Beyonce Knowles.
On TIDAL’s new “Footnotes for 4:44,” which is roughly an 11 minute documentary that explores the controversial track in depth, Jay reveals that his marriage “wasn’t totally built on the 100 percent truth.”
“What I thought, when I met my dad, was, ‘Oh, I’m free to love now,’” Hov says on Footnotes. “But it’s like, ‘Yeah, but how are you gonna do it? You wanna do it, I get it, but how are you gonna do it? You’ve never won this before. No one informs you how to do it. You don’t even have the tools to do it.’ ‘I don’t know. But I’m gonna do it.’ That’s why I say, ‘You matured faster than me. I wasn’t ready.’”
“This is my real life,” he goes on to say about his marriage to Bey. “I ran into this place and we built this big, beautiful mansion of a relationship that wasn’t totally built on the 100 percent truth, and then it starts cracking, and then things start happening that the public can see.”
“We had to go to a point where it was like, ‘Tear this down and let’s start from the beginning,’” he continues. “It’s hard. Remember, I’m from Marcy Projects. [Been] shot at. Nothing is harder than this. By far, I’m telling you, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Most humans, us, we’re not willing to put ourselves through that. Most people give up.”
Hov then went on to reveal how he introduced Bey to the “4:44” track. “I just played it,” he says. “We got to a place where we’re like, ‘In order for this to work, this can’t be fake, not one ounce.’ I’m not saying it wasn’t uncomfortable, because obviously, it was, but because we’ve been doing this for so long, it was less uncomfortable.”